Missing you~

Mom, I am really missing you!
I just miss picking up the phone and chatting about nothing but yet everything.
It is now soon to be July and I remember you saying that you were considering moving here....
Instead you went to the Penthouse, way up high with the streets of gold.

The past few days we have had scattered thundershowers, some with flashes of lightning and big thunder boomers!
I told Madison you were having a bowling tournament up in Heaven... she didn't know you liked to bowl. :)

I try not to cry as I can hear you say, "Valerie Lynn" stop that crying now. LOL *tears rolling down on my cheeks*
Mom, you had so much life still in you. I don't know what happened that week, how sick you must have felt... out of no where.
I know you went quickly but the thoughts running through your head must have really scared you.

I so wish you were here.............

I love and miss you mom, more than ever..

Madison's Recital 6/09/07

Well today was Madison's recital and she did a fantastic job doing all of her dances: She was a Sheep in the Ballet production of Beauty & The Beast. Her class also danced to Chantilly Lace by the "Big Bopper" and Knock Three Times by Tony Orlando.
I know you had the best seat in the house Mom.
I know you had a smile on your face as I know you would have been so proud of her.
We miss you mom and wish you were here~




Here is a few pictures of Madison from her recital on Saturday June 9, 2007

Pictures have been removed on 8/07/08


Here she is in her SHEEP costume for the Ballet Production of Beauty & The Beast

Pictures have been removed on 8/07/08

It's been 2 months since you got your wings

Mom, it seems almost impossible in a way that you have been gone for 2 months already.
I look for signs of you everywhere. One day we were coming home from church on a Weds evening
and noticed the beautiful sunset and mentioned it to Madison. She then quickly replied " I bet Grandma
helped Jesus paint that pretty sunset" I don't know if she knew you loved to paint and draw of what but I
was so shocked to hear this but it did put a smile on my face.

Estelle went to order the stone for you, we sure you would like it. We can't wait to get it laid so we can
go and give you some flowers, we could now but since you are buried on top of grandpa, we want to wait
to put them by your foot stone.

Tomorrow is Madison's rehearsal for her first dance recital tomorrow and knowing you would be here makes it
a little difficult at times.
I put a happy ad in the program book for Madison in your honor:

Pea Pie, may you always have the love of dance in deep in your heart. Your Grandma would be so proud of you,
Just know that she wanted so much to be here and she is now watching you from the best seat in the house, the one up above, in heaven.
In Memory of Grandma Marge (4/7/07)


I just wish you were here mom.
I love you and miss you so much.

Well.

Well, I somehow managed to get through Mother's Day and then only 2 days later was your birthday you would have been 64 yes old.
As summer approaches I remember our conversations of you considering moving down here with me, Russ, Zach and Madison. We were quite excited at that possibility!

I miss you mom, it often seems unreal that you are really gone. I guess because I was so far away in KY. I miss calling you several times a day (Thank God for unlimited long distance!)

I miss the little things too, like calling you way early or leaving you messages on your answering machine.
I miss the times of Madison going to get on the other phone and interrupting our conversation because she
wanted to talk to her grandma.
I miss hearing Madison tell you about her day or whatever she learned with homeschool that day.

I hope that I didn't nag you too much mom about getting health insurance and wanting the best for you as you so deserved it. I really did it out of love for you mom.
I just wanted you to have a full life, not sit at home alone all the time, that is why I fussed at you to get out and do something, take a class, go to church, whatever it was but to get out with people. I didn't want you to be a homebody...

I miss you being here, coming to visit and finally getting some rest, sleeping good, eating better because you had us and you weren't alone. I know it isn't any fun being alone all the time and I don't think it is very healthy either. ((HUGS))

I so wish I would have hugged you more!!!!
I know I told you I loved you and meant every word, but hugging you when you were here visiting is what I wish I would have done more of.



I guess this is one way of keeping you updated huh, I so do wish so much that you were here.

We have been calling Grandma Miller and she just adores Madison just as much as you did, you should see her smile when she talks about Madison.

Please continue to watch over all of us especially the kids, we love and miss you mom.

I love you~